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i love you alfie, you are my heart

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart) …e.e.cummings

my little girl is 4 and i want to stop time.  it feels like everything is moving so fast and i am not savoring it enough…suddenly we are here at four and a few months and this afternoon when opening some old suitcases we discovered some long forgotten baby clothes  of her, sweet colorful panties, bathing suits …and obsessed like she is with babies, she needed to try them all on. and suddenly it hits me. I understand that hours, days, months, years have passed since she was so light that she would fit into the crook of one´s arm.

you have grown my heart.

now you have to be talked through life, now you have to be played around.

I love you alfie you are my heart.

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